Saturday, September 16, 2006

The Biggest Bunny


From my friend Dana... THIS IS REAL...

"have you seen THIS!?!?!?
cool big wabbit!! i WANT one.

** Herman could be 'biggest bunny' **
A man has been showing off his gigantic rabbit named Herman.

Sunday bliss...

Woke up this morning feeling so damn GOOD, yeah! (leaps up & punches sky) . EXTREME positivity is affecting my being lately. I had this feeling like I don't want to crave for anything. Everything I need is already here in my life right now, like an immense feeling of gratitude for everything exactly the way it is right now. Got up made myself some Meri Chai and omelet and listened to some Kimya Dawson, The Knife & trashy disco Madonna. Life is good. Soon I will get on my bike & ride to the supermarket & buy the week's supplies. Maybe also some writing & painting today? The sun is shining and a glorious empty Sunday opens up before me. What a blessing. yay. :-) Hope you are happy wherever you too are whatever you are doing... Big smile from Stormi. xxx

Film: Last Days

I watched this movie late last night. Fuck. Amazing. I love Gus Van Sant directing. Done with such compassion & sublime poetry. He does these long, long takes with no edits - this really brings you into the scene, makes it really intimate.

And its funny because I didn't find it too dark or depressing. Almost like in the end the main character, Blake (based on Kurt Cobain, but not really a telling of Kurt's story) takes his own life as the ultimate act of self- compassion & release from the thing that he has created & that has become too big for him. This made me really re-think suicide as an option for some people, meaning that we can't judge it at all. There is no way we can have an opinion on it as a choice, its such a personal, individual choice.

That being said, my own views on this have always leaned towards that of: why leave the cinema when the movie is half-way through? Even if the film is bad, I want to stay to see how it ends, the suspense is too much for me, I have to get up every morning because I'm afraid I might miss something really wonderful when it comes along, because it invariably does.

A beautiful film on a sad life, made with compassion & soul.

Stormi out. xxx

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Happy-ning & Happy-ned..

Hello dear friends, its been awhile since my last real post. So much has happened in the last few months and gladly so - these changes have been a long time coming.

Today is a sunny Sunday and the first day that I feel like I'm landing back into my body after all this crazy busyness.. am spending the entire weekend in my pod with occaisonal forays out into the world to buy the paper/food/dvd's.

These the things/events that are happy-ning & that have happy-ned...

WORK: As mentioned before I finally got a full-time job with w/ends & holiday pay etc. in a nice environment with nice co-workers. For the first time in years I have financial security and I'm astounded at the difference it has made to my psyche. I know that money does not buy happiness, but it sure does help one buy that cute red dress I saw in the window and matching pink lippy. Not to mention finally paying off years of credit card debt & my HECS debt of 15 years! Fuck me, bring it on.

ART: Writing is continuing. Got my first rejection letter. woo-wee. I am a writer. :-)

MUSIC: Currently listening to anything Kimya Dawson. This lady is amazing. Love her to bits. She's the new millenium's female Bob Dylan. Check out her site here and here. Read lyrics from her song: I like Giants:
Kimya Dawson - I Like Giants

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road, turn out the lights, get out and look up at the sky
And I do this to remind me that I'm really, really tiny
In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me

But it's only really scary cause it makes me feel serene
In a way I never thought I'd be because I've never been
So grounded, and so humbled, and so one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye

When I saw Geneviè,ve I really liked it when she said
What she said about the giant and the lemmings on the cliff
She said 'I like giants
Especially girl giants
Cause all girls feel too big sometimes
Regardless of their size'

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road and run and jump into the ocean in my clothes
And I'm smaller than a poppyseed inside a great big bowl
And the ocean is a giant that can swallow me whole

So I swim for all salvation and I swim to save my soul
But my soul is just a whisper trapped inside a tornado
So I flip to my back and I float and I sing
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

So I talked to Geneviè,ve and almost cried when she said
That the giant on the cliff wished that she was dead
And the lemmings on the cliff wished that they were dead
So the giant told the lemmings why they ought to live instead

When she thought up all those reasons that they ought to live instead
It made her reconsider all the sad thoughts in her head
So thank you Geneviè,ve, cause you take what is in your head
And you make things that are so beautiful and share them with your friends

We all become important when we realize our goal
Should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole
And yeah, rock and roll is fun, but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky

Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
And I don't wanna make her cry
Cause I like giants
Yay great stuff...

PROJECTS: the chai project is now progressing well, have had great feedback for my recipe.

TITHING: I've found a just & worthy cause... it's called Ian Thorpe's Fountain for Youth. A project wherein books & other reading materials are delivered to impovrished remote indigenous communities. For just $100 you sponsor a Literacy Backpack full of books for a child & their family. Very cool.

Can't think of anything else at the moment and the sun is shining out in Melbs and pulling me out of my pod.

Love you, Meri xxx